Well, firstly, we got a new stove so I can finally bake again. I am so very happy and grateful for it.
Rest of the day consisted of mostly tears, in different degrees and variaty of ways. Although in a way difficult and feeling rather cloudy, moment of tears, especially those tears connected with existential issues of my very being that moment is also a process of purging and a process of approaching insights of facts such that signify growth, or letting go of things or believes that are not very useful or simply practical any more. Difficulty is of course of remaining watchful, observant, feeling, hearing and allowing things to fall in place without falling totally out of place oneself. So, it is for tears I am grateful, for the process they bring, and for somewhat staying in one piece through it this day.
And thankful for a promise of a new day and a freshly baked bread in the new oven. Oven is right now being "baked" so that left over oils of production will evaporate. It smells unpleasant, it is slightly cloudy and choking in here, quite alike my tearful day. After it is baked it will be ready for use, for some time at least. Eventually it will need maintenance, cleaning and fixes. Rather alike days that await me and my own postburning times. Such a matching occurance in our lives today, stoves and mine. I look forward to taste new breads to come.
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